It was exhilarating..
I‘mnot sure there’s some sick complex. I wonder what I have come to expect
of and why I tolerate such repeated offenses. Not to excuse my
behavior, but don’t I wonder what drives me to stray?
Have
I ever sat down and asked what I seeks on the outside that I’m not
getting on the inside? Do I have time for myself? Do I talk and listen
to others? Am I kind enough to others, and supportive? Do I have fun
with poeple around me?
let it go because I shattered the rules I thought I’m living by, and
that’s a huge trauma. Forgiveness isn’t one-sided; I’m willing to make
amends for my transgression, and even then it’s not easy. I needs to
understand that it’s caused me pain, and if people really cares about
me, they will empathize with that pain, which will make them feel bad,
too.
In our narcissistic
culture of surfaces, be straightforward in our approach, speak the
truth, be soft, gentle, polite, try to forget and forgive, see good in
a person, if possible, try to acknowledge the good, tell clearly what
you do not like, talk sensibly, listen with compassion and sensitivity,
reach out, touch, accept your faults.
Admit when you’ve made a
mistake, tell clearly what you want. Wait for your turn, say “sorry”,
say “thank you”, be grateful, learn to respect and reciprocate small
gestures of concern, kindness, compassion and humanity, children are
God’s best gift to mankind.
Love them without spoiling them with
too much or too little attention, learn to understand quietness, do
your best to help, in being good, don’t forget, like everyone else, you
too are a human being and are likely to falter.
"I learn this through my life of journey for this over 22 years, since I was born & I’m still learning. I was forced to think about things most of the time. It was exhilarating.”
Just
imagine myself on the receiving end of an approval seeker. Picture
myself discussing a business deal with such a person. He uses big
words, he keeps running his fingers through his hair and he isn’t
really listening to me. More than that he seems disingenuous; in fact,
his smile looks phony too. I walk away seeing right through him, and I
wonder who he truly is.
